I often think you're tougher than I am.
People say I'm so strong and courageous. They say that all the time. And it means something.
But I'm fond of thinking that if I had an ounce of strength or courage I would have stayed where I was and done what was expected of me and been miserable all my life. Lots of people do that. I finally didn't have the strength.
So, are you tougher than I am or am I just weaker than you?
Not that I would mind either one of those. I just want to know.
Maybe I would be strong and courageous (or not) anyway, never mind the circumstances. But nobody ever told me that I was strong, or that I had courage before I started living my life as a female almost three years ago.
It's just another one of those things that seems to separate me. I mean yeah, it's a compliment. And I know I'm conducting a master class in gender studies here. But the last thing I want to feel is separated.
Strength and courage are probably some things that should be assigned a lot more to a lot more people. Then I might feel good about it being assigned to me.
-Meghan
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